The desperation of America's high school goobers

Kira Weiland decided that I needed to hear this song by David Archuleta called "Crush", which I don't understand. I could have gone my whole life without hearing this song, as I've already heard several hundred different versions of it, including but not limited to Dashboard Confessional's "Screaming Infidelities". That song is amazing, by the way. I could play that song for any high school guy or girl 20 years from now, and by the end of it they would either:

a. have goosebumps
b. be crying
c. start talking about some failed relationship

This song "Crush" by Archuleta is essentially the same idea. He's digging on some girl, she doesn't know apparently, and he doesn't know how he's going to relay this information to her.

As soon as I figured out this premise, I got goosebumps. Needless to say, I'm a little ticked about it. The music isn't good, and certainly isn't something I'd ever spend more than 15 seconds of my life listening to. I hate this type of music. But something in me was crying out to comiserate with these lyrics. Why?

I'm still at a point in my life where I feel a desperate need for relationship with someone else. That doesn't make sense to me though, because I know that I don't NEED any relationship other than the one I have with Christ. How the heck can I let something as trivial as a physical relationship with a woman compromise the relationship I have with the savior of my freaking life? And when I say physical, I mean actual, like something someone other than myself can see, not having sluber parties with your girlfriend. That never got me anywhere good anyway. It certainly didn't improve my relationship with the Lord, since I was way too busy pleasing and serving myself and not Him.

I see all these kids, high school kids, at the mall I work at. They hold hands and kiss and laugh and goof off. They think the books with sexual names are hilarious. I saw a girl just staring at her boyfriend while they were walking hand in hand, a huge smile on her face. What makes them so happy? Is it ignorance? And if that's the case, is that ignorance based in a lack of knowledge of the true love that comes from the Lord? I know a lot of high school guys are only thinking about one thing. I was one of those guys. Sometimes, I turn into that guy. I never chose to shut it off in high school, because all my buddies were pursuing some feeling or moment to brag about later. Why are we so crappy to women as men? Why do women let us do it to them?

We as people need to desperately seek to love one another the way Christ loves us, and we need to do it now. Those songs, from the likes of Dashboard 10 years ago and David Archuleta today, might express the feelings we have for others accurately, but they just amplify them to the point of despair.

So don't cry if you don't get the girl. I'm 26 and still don't have the girl. I've thought I had the girl several times in the past, only to get stuck listening to the love mix CDs I made them a few months before. I met a man tonight at work who was buying a boatload of clothes for his daughter. I asked him what his plans were tonight, just to strike up conversation while I ran up nearly $250 in clothes.

"Oh, not too much. Just going home to see the love of my life."

Huh. Wasn't expecting that.

"Really? That sounds awesome man", I said rather unconvincingly. I smiled at him, but was a little jealous of him, until he dropped this one on me:

"Yep, waited 43 years for her."

Sheesh! 43 years!? Are you kidding me?? High school kids, you get all bent out of shape. Your girlfriend of 6 months dumps you and you freak out, acting like you'll never get another one like that.

a. chances are, you won't
b. that's just fine

Don't try to control your life, or your relationships. Live in love, and God will return that love to you. It'll happen one of these days. If you're waiting on anything, waiting on the Lord is pretty alright to do. And by pretty alright I mean probably better than waiting on winning lottery tickets. Don't think that God doesn't love you if you haven't got someone in your life on a romantic level. Just let it happen man. I had to deal with it all summer, and I'm still dealing with it on some level. But I never turned it into some miserable song that everyone ages 15-35 can relate to on some superficial, hyper-emotional level. Just let it go.




In other news, I'm not entirely sure about what I've just written. Feel free to comment away about it. It's ridiculous, and it's midnight. Also, I love you. Unconditionally. Ha! Heeya.